I’ve found myself dreading looking at 2019 in retrospect for many reasons but mainly because this year was so polarized, it’s difficult to talk about with any sense of cohesion or without sounding like I’m bragging or complaining.
Much of my life has been this way. I only find balance by oscillating or vacillating between extremes, and this last decade has shown me how time & space are transformative and unyielding.
In 2010, I was convinced reinstating Prohibition was a sound move and by 2020, I’ve sampled hundreds of wines and now thoroughly enjoy learning about the distillation of gin.
I became the first in my family to attend university, almost flunked out my freshman year and ended my undergraduate career being recognized for my outstanding leadership & service.
I teetered between anger, hurt, inspiration and motivation as I embarked on a mission for cultural exchange, equity, inclusion and justice.
I lost and found love in immense and insubstantial ways and this year, met the man of my dreams.
This year left me tired and defeated but more focused and aware than I’ve ever been. Even in my days as a competitive athlete, I never experienced physical challenge like I did in 2019, and the work I’ve put in to exploring and understanding new depths of spirituality are lessons I’ll carry with me throughout this life and beyond.
I’m feeling somewhat apathetic towards setting intentions for the next decade or even 2020—I’ve still got some pretty good ones left from the last few years. Until I gain clarity around some carried over resolutions, I’ll be keeping it simple:
Awakening. Uplifting. Healing.
May whatever span of time feels significant to each of you be filled with health, abundance & happiness. Peace.